ours is not perfect, i know it'll never be.
we fight. we bitch. we cry,
but at the end of the day we know we mean no harm.
we love.



xoxo

Angela L / SG
beating_pulse87@hotmail.com
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twelve points!!!

wahaha.this is the biggest joke
on earth man.

the results are as follows:
english language: A2
chinese: A1
higher chinese: B3
emaths: A2
physics/chem: A1
biology: B3
add maths: B3
ss/history: B4

yupps.this is the results i've gotten.
quite happy lar.but the problem is..
should i go to saint andrews?or stay here with my
friends in cj?boohoo.this decision is hard to make.

oh btw, me sam grace yewteng jinwei sandra jessie wizardson
mel sylvia all went to play pool before collecting our results.
funky balls at paradigm(ssc) was damn crowded that all the tables
were taken.so we had a long wait before we could start playing.
hahas.was damn slack.but everyone was starting to get so jittery at around
1.30 pm and the suspension was terrible.mel almost broke down.
(you should have seen her)..hahas.played for about an hour and den
some of them headed off back to their respective secondary schools.
so left me yewteng sam grace wizz and jinwei playing.
yewteng was damn pro i tell you.(jealous jealous)
his accuracy is like 90%.hahas.

around 2pm,vic msged me to head down to school
like then cos she was saying that the results are out
and everyone is like queueing to get them.we were screaming
and were more nervous than ever upon reading that.
but we told ourselves to calm down cos it'll be even more
stressful to see all those names on the whiteboard
and your name not inside.(and we thought not as if we did very well)
so we kinda strolled and took our time and the funny
thing is we even ate at the nubar(spell?) just bside the pool place
before leaving.jinwei and yewteng ordered something
but the girls were too nervous to swallow anything down.
so in the end,we really couldn't take it anymore
as more and more people are calling us and telling us
how they did blahblahblah so we got rather
scared again and decided that we will just face
reality and go collect our results like now.
so left the guys eating and we finally set off.
took a cab down.

after knowing the good news that almost
all of our friends did well,
we felt relieved.thank god man.
took a cab down again to paradigm to meet those
guys again.this time with daphnne(J2) and her other
two guy friends.but as we had more appetite now,
me sam and grace decided to fill our stomach now that
we can eat in peace.hahas.yewteng joined us
cos he felt bored and didnt felt like playing pool
again with them.
walked all the way to ps macs just to consume
a large fries and coke.talked and gossiped about school
stuff as usual and after getting to know
him better, i found that he's actually very friendly
and down-to-earth and a very easy-to-talk-to kind
of person unlike some other people.

next.headed to town.
walked around wisma and takashimaya.
something funny happened while i was
walking bside yewteng:

both of us walking side by side, then
suddenly...
me:ouch!
yewteng:omg!did you feel that?!
me:(looks at him.stunned...)yea.i so did..static electricity right?
was it from your watch or something?
yewteng:err..no..it's just us!!!

hhaas.this is the first time i felt static electricity
from a person.this is so weird.
imagine walking around in taka and suddenly
you feel a pain on your lower arm...
lol.what an experience!

stopped by at basement mos to rest our legs.
we have been walking quite a distance.
poor yewteng!his injured leg are not yet
fully recovered and yet he walked with us
all the way.hahas.
sorry!!!

to sam grace yewteng jinwei sandra and jessie:
nice going out and gossiping non-stop with you all today.i really really enjoyed
myself soo much.all thanks to your presence(s)!!hahas.really
glad that we did well for the Olevels and hope we'll be in the same class!
you all rock my world:))hugs.


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mixed feelings of fear and anxiety are rising
within me.i'm too distracted to think about anything else

this true.i have no idea what i've written for the individual papers.
i cant remember if i did well nor can i predict how much my L1R5
will be.i'm just preparing for the worst...

talk about school today man!almost half the J1
population wasnt here.the mafia gang didnt turn up as well.
i should have predicted this.today is like a total waste of
my time.i should have stayed at home and do something
more useful like planning what i'm gonna do after
i get those horrendous results.
sighs.this is a really really horrible thought.

i totally agree with qianqi with what she said to me
over the phone just now.it is rather awful to
see how many distinctionson your close friends are
getting at the end of the day on the whiteboard outside
the hall when your name doesnt even have the slightest chance
to appear there...oh wells.
i only have myself to blame.
everyone will be squeaking squealing and jumping
around for joy while dear angela will sit in a tiny dark corner
envying everyone who did well.

anyway,whatever it is.
here's wishing every Olevel candidate of 2003
a special good luck for tomorrow.

here's a little note from dearest "immy":
there is no result so bad that warrants suicide of self infliction of pain.
think positive and be positive:)

i just feel damn inspired and comforted after
reading his little sweet msg.
thanks for those keeping me POSITIVE imran!
all the best for tomorrow alriights?




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dexter and alex warned us not to
crash sajc.hahas.
because they got caught the other time for crashing sa.

was talking to dexter and gang during
break.went over to chat with qianqi and jolyn at
the other table.talk about the maths ca man!
it's freaking hard i tell you!even mark lim complained.
dex says he's most probably going sa or ac after asking if i'm
staying in cj.qi wants me to crash vj with her tomorrow.
it's so last minute.like seriously..she just asked me in the
canteen today.but i thought tomorrow is going to be
one of the last days everyone of myfriends willl be
together here in cj,so i'm contemplating about the plan tmr.btw,
dex's question kept me thinking:am i staying in cj?or am
i going to my dream school sa?
hmms.the results are going to be
out this friday, the 27th of feb.
the thought of receiving my horrendous results from
mr ng just give me those shudders.sighs.
feeling fucked-up now.

ponned two lectures today consecutively before
school ended at 1.50pm.was at the bball court playing
basketball with the rest.hahas.gui-hui(aka windows) and gang
were also ponning.hahas.this goes to show how boring
our physics lecture is!
angela lets out a bigbig sigh...

gonna go catch american idol later at 10pm!
wondering how this batch of people will do man:)
exciting exciting.entertainment at home and gossips in
school are the only two that keeps me alive.

why dont you be that person
i always wanted to be

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You are blessed with FAERY wings. Beauty,
laughter, life, magic...that's what you are all
about. You are refreshingly innocent and happy
with your life of purity and play. Life's a
game and it's a good one. In your eyes there's
no way to lose! You can be very mischeivous and
have been known to cause trouble, but it's all
in the name of fun and not meant to really harm
anyone. You like to play tricks on people who
aren't quite as bright or clever as you - which
is almost everyone. Nature is the setting you
prefer to be in - Always. Barefoot and wild you
can't be tamed. You're probably a restless
spirit who loves to travel, and quite a
dreamer. Your creativity is astounding and your
art (of whatever media - from writing to
painting to drama) is like something from
another world - ethereal and often very
fantasy-oriented. You can either be a social
butterfly or a loner with their head in the
clouds - but rarely inbetween. You stubbornly
refuse to accept responsibility or to give in
to the wishes of others - unless you feel like
it. You have a strong passion for music and
can't imagine life without it. You'll grow up
someday, but you'll always be a child at heart.
You are adventurous and love to take risks, and
feel a deep connection with the weather,
plants, and animals. You prefer sunshine to
thunder or snow, the warmth of summer to
autumn's chill, and quiet forests to suburban
backyards. Magic through and through, you are
far more powerful than you seem, and are
capable of being extremely passionate. Though
you can be childish, naive, stubborn, and
self-absorbed, one thing is certain - life with
you will never be boring!


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i'm supposed to bring canon in D
scoresheet for miss gracie but
guess what?i entirely forgotten about it this morning.
some short-term memory eh?
hahas.i'm sorry to keep you waiting grace..
i promise i'll pass it to you tmr:)
and dont forget my yu zian!!!

been a loong day in school for me.
everything is just so mundane when it comes to
monday.school just starts all over again for a new week.
and worse still, to top it all,
there's nothing much to look forward to this week
except the release of the stupid Olevel results.
this sucks.
i've got a bad feeling that i'll do terribly...
(sighs)oh wells.
what to do man.what is done cannot be undone.
the marks were already determined the day i wrote
all my answers down on that sheet of paper.
i guess i'll just have to accept the fact that
the results will be out soon and meanwhile,
make the best out of the last week in cj with iT18.
i'll miss those people though...
the 3months in cj had made me grow and bcome
more mature and sociable.

it's time to face reality.
i reminded myself again:the results will be out soon.


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dont you ever wish
you were someone else
you were meant to be
the way you are exactly

dont you ever say
you dont like the way you are
when you learn to love yourself
stay the way you are
and i hope you'll always stay the same
bcos there's nothing about you i would change...



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marianne: thanks for everything you've done for
me today.i really appreciate it loads:)just wana say A BIG THANK YOU!!!
you just made my day beautiful.the neoprint's really pretty and sweet.
i love you to bits my dear dear sister!!!looking forward to the next weekend:)
(-all smiles:))))

going out with marianne is a pure joy.
that is probably why i lovee hanging out with her.
just came back from town with her.
my legs are aching now but who cares..
i've enjoyed myself so much that i have no
regrets at all today.
today just feel so beautiful.
at 6.20pm,we met tp mrt and ate out dinner
at FIESTA japanese restaurant in
tp central.it was heavenly.had the coffee cheesecake which
marianne said tasted like spongecake.haaas.
she was so cute!!!
anyway,headed to wisma to shop.
saw some rather nice bikinis and we actually wanted
to buy but for some reason or another..
we didnt in the end.was too rush.
went to heeren to take neos instead.
took twice.
oh the new machine rox!!
it's really pretty and the effects are really
cool and nice..
should try it.(recommended!)
but there's always a long queue for that particular machine.
nonetheless,it's definitely worth the wait.

met krystle in flash and splash.
she has grown prettier.hahs.
she's in sajc now btw.
oh and i also saw the girl in cj that went to the wrong toilet.
she's damn funny i tell you!!
she didnt know the toilet that was washing was a boy's toilet
she thought it was a girl's toilet..so she went upstairs.
minutes later,she came down claiming that the upstairs's one
is cleaning too.and she asked me not to go in..
but i was giving her the huh? look on my face,knowing that
the girl's toilet(which is like right in front of me) is not under cleaning.
so i pointed to her and said: look!it's not under cleaning what?!
she was so embarassed that i think she blushed and gave a weak laugh.
hahas.okie..whatever.i think it's funny.
yar..i met her at orchard mrt at like 10.15pm just now?
hahas.she was with her friend.and she could recognized me!
she waved and said hi!

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just viewed grace's picture gallery.
those pictures taken during the mtv awards!
oh gosh.they were so near the stage!
(-jealousy reigns-)
they get to see all those celebs so clearly!!!

there's gareth gates.5566.vaness wu.michelle branch
and simple plan!!ARGH.
lucky people...

okie.
my bed is calling me now.
i just feel so tired all of a sudden.
i'm turning in.
had been sleeping rather late these days
because of those shows on tv and scv.
goodnight all.



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stan's blog is added.

things i received:
1 rose from sandy mama
1 orange daisy from jue dear
1 yellow daisy from step darling
1 dark pink daisy from lisa babe
1 pink heart wire with starss from qianqi gorgeous.
1 pinkish red periwinkle from felix boy
1 candle from marianne princess
1 powerpuff drink from tessa cutiee
1 home-made brownie from denise queen
1 sexy light-blue thong from samantha sassy
3 japanese jellies from kai ling sweetie
5 ferrero rochers from olivia and jiayuan
a million chocolates(grace,siew yong,pam,phylicia,amy soon ming etc:)
a zillion candies and lollipops!!!

thanks loads for the gifts people:))
i really really appreciate them and every
single one of them touched my heart...
i love you all to bits!!!

you guys rock!woohoos.
anyway,an advance happy valentine's to all.
it is a b.ea.uti.ful day for me...


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on the radio:tata young--sexy.

jess crashed cj again.
hhas.this time without juli.
talking about crashing, mark lim just "crashed" into me
this morning.

this was what happen...
i was outside the classroom waiting for jinwei shaun and jue
when the next thing i knew,i felt somebody banging into me!
then i saw mark standing bside me..almost falling.
then he quickly said:sorry sorry...
hahas..then i found myself saying:it's okay...it's okay.
it's kind of retarded but nevermind.

played a word game during econs lect.
that sort of game where you have to form different
words from a word chosen.like: disadvantage
then you just try to find as many words you can out of
that particular word..
haahs.cant believe three brains mainly:jinwei bambi, myself and shaun
cant win hui shan alone.fucck/
all of us were cracking our brains the whole time.
was sitting in between shaun and jinwei.
when they started coming up with lame and stupid words
that are not proper english, it was so hilarious.
those jokers!!! ;)

hahas.it really kills time!
econs lecture was like the fastest period to me
today..whew!



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joke of the day:1900-eeyore!
lols..pecussion personal joke ;)

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cant believe i'm actually mugging for
tomorrow's econs ca test.
i know it's kinda last minute thing
but i just wana pass it...

angela...go tell the world that it's way past
your bedtime now.
-yawns-
i cant keep myself awake!
and this goddamn subject is terribly boring!!!
argh...



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tiredness creeps in...
and there is going to be mass p.e tomorrow.
somebody please tell me i am in torture camp!
argh..!!!

btw.watch peter pan yesterday.
tell me about that gorgeous-looking prettaye boy man:))
his eyes are just soo calming and it's BLUE!
oh gosh..i wish i have his eyes.
hmm.

valentine's day is coming.
real fast.another year has passed.
remember those days in ij where you will find tonnes of
sweets and candies and chocolates and beautiful flowers on
your desk when you step into the classroom.
you feel so loved by your fellow classmates and friends...
hugs and kisses are exchanged, simple but warm greetings
of "happy valentine" said to one another...
the feeling's just so g.r.e.a.t that you would not believe it.
hhas.

ij.. ij...i miss you badly.

x-country today couldnt be better.
no rain..nothing.the weather's perrrfect.
everyone is looking all geared up in their cj p.e attire when i reached.
we were late as usual btw.and since our whole class signed
up for competitive, we were given a tag which we were supposed to
pin it in front of our shirt.
was comtemplating whether to run leisure or competitive.
hahas.in the end..i chose competitive still.ran with shi jue...
now my legs are aching like shit.
tell me how am i going for mass p.e in this state tomorrow..
and should i bring my badminton racket =/ ?


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using band names, spell out your name
A - a*teens
N- nickelback
G- girls aloud
E- evanescence
L- linkin' park
A- aerosmith

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? hahaha.nope.
3)What song makes you cry? what if-kate winslet
4)What song makes you happy? hahahs.she bangs-william hung.simply hilarious!
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? preferably lullabys...

PT. II a p p e a r a n c e

`HEIGHT: 159cm
`HAIR COLOR: black
`SKIN COLOR: asian skin color
`EYE COLOR: black
`PIERCINGS: ears
`TATTOOS: -

r i g h t n o w
`WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? purple adidas shorts
`WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: schubert-serenade
`WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: mint chewing gum
`WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cloudy
`HOW ARE YOU? feeling damn jaded!
`d o y o u GET MOTION SICKNESS?: yes sometimes when there's turbulance on the plane
`HAVE A BAD HABIT?: procrastinate.
`GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: well, most of the time
`LIKE TO DRIVE?: YES!Omfg, i can drive a manual car and
the feeling's just so great..(hides smile)

f a v o r i t e s

`TV SHOW: the GUESS show,drama series,american idol
`CONDITIONER: i dont use any
`BOOK: girl with a pearl earring
`MAGAZINE: seventeen:)
`NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: currently apple and aloe vera
`ALCOHOLIC DRINK: blueberry and apple-flavoured vodkas
`THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: study for the upcoming tests!argh..

h a v e y o u

`BROKEN THE LAW: so far nope.
`RAN AWAY FROM HOME: err nope.
`SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: nope again
`EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: hell no
`MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: haha no.ive got better things to do
`EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: what's that?
`USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: hur.dream on angela!
`SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yupps.
`FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: hahas.that will be so hilarious!!!
`BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: errm no.. none that i remember of.
`LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yes.

l o v e

`BOYFRIEND: nope
`GIRLFRIEND: nope
`SEXUALITY: straight
`CHILDREN: -
`CURRENT CRUSH:it's not current anymore
`BEEN IN LOVE?: dont think so
`HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE? umms
`BEEN HURT?: yes
`YOUR GREATEST REGRET:one yesterday
`GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS:dont think so

r a n d o m
`DO YOU HAVE A JOB: nope
`YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: none..
`IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: white-pure
`WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: chocolate flowers and sweet memories
`WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: friends and family!
`WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: josh groban-i need sth inspirational
`WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: all those who stood by my side during difficult times
`WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: sleep

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

`TIME YOU CRIED?: recently.nvm..its over.
`YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: last sunday from dahling judy:)
`YOU GOT E-MAIL: everyday(that includes spam!)
`THING YOU PURCHASED: yesterday's yoshinoya's combo lunch
`TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: yesterday's night's snap3
`MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: think was infernal affairs 3

y o u r t h o u g h t s. o n

`ABORTION: no way!
`TEENAGE SMOKING: cool but stinko
`SPICE GIRLS: haha too HOT for small girl like me la
`DREAMS: believe and you'll achieve...


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currently:

`wearing:white top and purple adidas shorts
`spinning:sugarbabes-hole in my head
`feeling:jaded:(
`looking:at the computer screen
`thinkingof::you....

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i feel the world crumbling down on me.

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i feel the world crumbling down on me

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i feel the world crumbling down on me

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ate lunch at yoshinoya in taka after sch
with phylicia and siew yong.
the dahlingss*!!
hahas.they were so hilarious that i couldnt stop myself
from laughing..lalala.

wanted to play pool with shaun,aaron,pearl,sheryl,huishan
in ps but the bus was just too crowded and
i didnt felt like going anyway.
hahas.so i sorta changed clique.lols.

in the end shaun msged me and said that
they didnt play pool.hahas..
wth.they went into yamaha and played instruments such
as piano and guitar.crappy people..

that's so much for today.
sugar dreams babes and hunks.



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changed of template.
whee:)

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screw blogger!!!

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just came back from town*..
had piano again.
just wondering when this kind of weekly routine
will end...

saw sam and jinwei(aka bambi/matthew) near
orchard mrt on the way to wisma.
hahas.such a coincidence i tell you.
first i saw a sam-figure leaning against the pillar..
then i looked again..
a bright green nike water bottle(lol:)))
then appeared MR B.A.M.B.I
they were still in their cj uni cos they haven gone home
you see..
they went out to have lunch together with jue.

oh did i mention that i just pissed jinwei off today
during chinese class?
i sort of hurt his feelings but according to sam,
he must have faked that sorrowful expression that i saw
on his face.
but but...
he looked sad and hurt though.
sighs..i feel damn bad abt it.
seriously...

i'm so sorry jinwei!!!
i didnt mean to hurt you dear little sweet thing:)
you made me feel so bad the whole afternoon!

btw.physics test today sucked.
i sat in between raj and shaun.
raj was hell funny i swear:)
he's the joker lar.just not his day today.
he was made to do 75 push-ups just bcos he didnt
join us during pe this morning.
poor HIM!!awww.
but i did some push-ups for him though..heehee.
i feel helpful!(the whole class did too)
aww.i love IT18 suddenly..**
oopps.okie..maybe not some people inside though.
(-hides smile-)
coming back to the physic test, i think the teacher must
be crazy man.
the test was so freaking difficult!
if i hadnt copied..(oops i did it again!)
i wouldnt have known how to do a single shit..
yar..that is how bad it is.
argh!!that's it...
i'm switching course man.
--lit rox!--

gonna go brush my teeth now
and then have a good night sleep.

goodnight world:)

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